Here I am day after day learning to trust in God with the step I'm in right now, let me tell you its not easy but I am trying to keep myself in the word of God and daily devotional, just me and God, it's hard when you have boys at home all day and everyday so I manage to do this late at night, I am not really an early riser in the summer my boys love to stay up late and I let them, because of our situation we don't go out much so their only "fun" thing to do is being on the computer and staying up late, and don't get me wrong but I do assign them their chores, bible reading, and reading a book of their choice. As I was saying, I am trying to keep my focus on God rather on the situation my family is in right now.
My hubby endured a serious injury and with months and months of seeing different doctors, eventually he was diagnosed with "cocci" an infectious disease that he got by inhaling the affected dust and its usually around construction areas, well after summiting to all kinds of tests he had to summit to surgery, on his sternum bone right above his heart, they had to do surgery on him because the fungus was eating up his sternum bone and by the time he was diagnosed with this disease he had a hole on his sternum bone, with the surgery they removed all the infected bone around the hole and removed the small fractured tiny pieces of bone, and they also tried removing as much infected liquid possible. All this changed our life financially, emotionally, spiritually and for my hubby physically.
This all started in October in 2005 and still on that boat with the only choice of learning to trust in God as we endure this tough situation at first it was so hard because it was the beginning of this storm, and then it got hard because things were just getting darker and darker and now we are still in the storm but there are times when I do see some light in my life and it helps me to draw closer to God and receive new strength, I know that all this God is using it to help us grow in Him. On the daily devotional I'm in I am learning that we should tackle our worries on a daily basis just the way we clean out the junk of our home closet on a regular basis.
